The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock

This is my favorite poem and arguably better than “The Wasteland”.

BY T. S. ELIOT

S’io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma percioche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s’i’odo il vero,
Senza tema d’infamia ti rispondo.


Let us go then, you and I,
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherized upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an overwhelming question …
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”
Let us go and make our visit.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michelangelo.

The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes,
The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes,
Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening,
Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains,
Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.

And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street,
Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michelangelo.

And indeed there will be time
To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”
Time to turn back and descend the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair —
(They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”)
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin —
(They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”)
Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.

For I have known them all already, known them all:
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?

And I have known the eyes already, known them all—
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?

And I have known the arms already, known them all—
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
(But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!)
Is it perfume from a dress
That makes me so digress?
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
And should I then presume?
And how should I begin?

Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets
And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes
Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows? …

I should have been a pair of ragged claws
Scuttling across the floors of silent seas.

And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!
Smoothed by long fingers,
Asleep … tired … or it malingers,
Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me.
Should I, after tea and cakes and ices,
Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?
But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed,
Though I have seen my head (grown slightly bald) brought in upon a platter,
I am no prophet — and here’s no great matter;
I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,
And in short, I was afraid.

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it towards some overwhelming question,
To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead,
Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”—
If one, settling a pillow by her head
Should say: “That is not what I meant at all;
That is not it, at all.”

And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while,
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor—
And this, and so much more?—
It is impossible to say just what I mean!
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen:
Would it have been worth while
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
And turning toward the window, should say:
“That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all.”

No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
Am an attendant lord, one that will do
To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,
Deferential, glad to be of use,
Politic, cautious, and meticulous;
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse;
At times, indeed, almost ridiculous—
Almost, at times, the Fool.

I grow old … I grow old …
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

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Simon Pegg is a Genius

Quick shout out to Simon Pegg. Please make more movies. Please, for the love of God.

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Reminiscing…

My father and I shared a great love for MY FAIR LADY. It’s based on “Pygmalion” by George Bernard Shaw but Shaw was a jackass and MY FAIR LADY is much better. Plus, Audrey Hepburn is beautiful and I love Rex Harrison. Yes, you can be heterosexual and like musicals, it is indeed possible.

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My Parents’ Song

It is causing me an enormous amount of pain to post this, but it should go on the record somewhere (tears in the rain…) that this was their song. Now pardon me while I go puke again.

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Gerald and Caroline Lange, in memoriam

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Kirk’s Death Scene

Oh, yes, we did it, dad. We made a difference. Thank you.

It was…fun.

Oh my.

GWL IN MEMORIAM 1943-2023

Picard out, I will take the helm from here, Admiral.

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One More for Gerry Lange

One more for my dad. Because I wasn’t there at the end for him. I have to live with that. I had to be selfish. I was homeless. I had no choice. I wasn’t there at the end for my mother, either. Such is the irony of life; I spent decades trying to help them and impress them and then, at the end…I wasn’t there. Or was I? Was I on the screen instead of Ben Vereen, dad?

I’d like to think I was. So, one more time, Gerald, and remember: Jazz hands, okay?

P.S. Ben Vereen was an enormous talent who died far, far too early.

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She Wore Blue Velvet

The first movie my late father ever showed me was David Lynch’s Blue Velvet. I remember, he was so excited. He rented it down at the local video store, came back, and said, “Kip, this movie is supposed to be just TWISTED, this is going to be great!”

I was eleven years old when I saw Blue Velvet with my dad. If you haven’t seen it, you really should watch it; it’s arguably David Lynch’s greatest work. My father had a habit of doing this, though — shoving adult genius in my face as a child, then stepping back with a sort of, “Whatcha think of THAT, eh?” attitude.

Should you show it to a a child? I don’t know. It contains scenes of Dennis Hopper nitrous and saying to Pia Zsadora, “BABY WANTS TO F—!” and so on (“BABY WANTS BLUE VELVET!!!”) Maybe not. But my dad showed it to me and it changed my life.

So, here is the movie that I saw at a very formative age that has stuck with me allll these years, it made me who I am, thank you very much David Lynch and Gerry Lange, and goddamn that Frank is fucking fantastic!

Thanks, dad.

P.S. So the man was a Republican political consultant. Shut up. Just shut up. You don’t know what the man had to go through. Do *you* want to deliver briefcases full of $200,000 to mafia bosses who control unions in the North End of Boston in an empty warehouse? Fuck off.

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Life of a Repo Man is Always Intense

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Some Advice on Television Purchases

I recently had to move (my house burned down, for those who don’t know), and I had to purchase a new television, so I thought I’d briefly share my experience with everyone and let you know what I think the best TV on the market is.

First, go OLED. Just do it. OLEDs are much better. There’s no washout from side angles, they’re paper-thin, the colors pop like nobody’s business — go OLED. And go 4k. It makes a difference, it really does, especially if you game or you stream content as opposed to using a cable box. Also, get HDR. That makes a very big difference for gaming and for anything designed to use HDR — and that content is increasing daily.

Second — I hope I don’t get sued for this — but Consumer Reports has always been a reliable magazine, and their ratings are almost impossible to come by for free on the Internet (kudos to the people at CR for staying relevant) — but my late father subscribed to that particular magazine, and only passed away a little while ago, and before he did, he informed me that Consumer Reports had ranked the LG C2 series (their flagship model) as the best TV on the market (it’s OLED, 4k, HDR).

Thing is, to get a decent LG C2, you need to shell out a lot of money. So may I suggest one step down to what I purchased, which is the *A2* model? The only significant difference between the two is that the C2 is 120 Hz and the A2 is 60 Hz.

Okay, okay, I can hear fanboy bitching already. Blah blah the PS5 can do 120 FPS in a few games, so can the XBox, so you’re really going to miss that 120 Hz! Plus, a VERY few shows are being broadcast in 120 Hz.

The thing is, the science doesn’t support spending the money on the 120 Hz (which can broadcast 120 frames per second, as opposed to to 60 for the 60 Hz A2 models), because the human eye cannot notice a difference past 60 frames per second. 60 frames per second, when you see it on television, gives you that hyper-real “Soap Opera Effect”. Most people turn it off.

And I, personally, myself, was once incredibly psyched to get a 144 Hz monitor — and then incredibly disappointed when, no matter what I did, no matter how powerful my card, I could not, for the life of me, notice a difference past 60 FPS in gaming (and these games were not capped at 60 FPS; I was getting a steady 144 FPS).

Consider that very few things at all are broadcast in 60 FPS, and very few video games use over 60 FPS, even if the capability is there, precisely because the science says the human eye cannot tell the difference between 60 FPS and over 60 FPS. 60 FPS is the rough cap. Yes, yes, I know, it’s like lossless music; even’t if you can’t hear it, or see it, it’s still there, and for the true cinephiles and such — and if you can afford it — get the C2 model.

But if you’re on a budget, may I recommend the much cheaper A2 which has everything the C2 does (basically) except for the 120 Hz refresh rate? At around 48” to 55”. I have a 48” and it is *crystal* clear, it really is.

So, there you go. I recommend an LG A2 or C2 and I think Consumer Reports says the C2 is the best overall (both LG). Do some shopping around, look for deals. All I can tell you is that neither will disappoint you — but that my last 1080p Sony Bravia (entry level) model did, indeed, disappoint me (and it was 60”). So I did my research this time.

Good luck.

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